Ten Year Anniversary

Tomorrow is my, or is it would be my, ten year anniversary. To say this is not how I thought I’d be spending it, would be an understatement. So much was stolen from us.

We met in Istanbul, traveled as often as possible. I assume we would be traveling if you were alive, but all I really wish is that I could look you in the eyes.

It’s been a brutal two weeks. I’ve shed more tears than I have in many years. We were both number people, anniversary people. Ten years was always going be hard. My relief has been the exhausted relief of many shed tears.

The longer you are gone, the longer I live, the more I realize there truly is no one else like you in this very broken world. We were so blessed to have you. I love you. It’s all so hard.

The day before an important date is usually the worst. There is hope for tomorrow. The emotions should at least take a break, even if the daily overwhelm of the work doesn’t let up.

Tomorrow I’ll be one day closer to seeing you again.