Grief

God with US

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Well that wasn’t just a wave of grief, it was a tsunami. I ended up walking out of a church service to sit on the ground beside his car.
God with us. God with us. God with us.
God was with us through all those other bad things. Shah knew that and always comforted me with that.
God was with us then. God is with us now.
God was with us the night Shah was killed in this car.
I sat there and tried to know what it was like for Shah. Shah had eternal life. Shah has eternal life even though he is now separated from his body. It was right n that car that he separated from his body.
I unlocked the car and sat in that seat.
God with us. God is with us. God was with us. God is with US.
I asked for a sign. Was I hearing from God?
I went back inside and the man who wrote the song that Shah loved and called the Emanuel (God with us song), Shah’s favorite song, started singing another song about God being with us and then stopped singing to say God is with us. One of the most familiar ways for me to hear from God is when I keep hearing the same message over and over.
God is with US. Shah and I are still an US and we are connected through God. God is with Shah, me and Zoya.
And there is a tiny slight break in the storm. Though I miss him so much.

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About Camila

From the mountains of North Carolina. New widow of a man from Iran. Mother of one precious girl. Anti-human trafficking expert. Pro-life leader. Sister to 16 siblings. Daughter of God.

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