Grief

Running on Garbage – Spiritual Food

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How does the body function on the trash I just fed it?  I just drank a large coffee with Heath syrup, cream and sugar. I added some toast, egg, and cheese to the menu. What the heck is my body suppose to do with that?! 
I got used to all the fruit and nuts and other fresh food Shah and I ate. We almost never ate anything that was processed, much less straight junk.

But more importantly, how does the spirit function on all this junk TV? Shah and I didn’t watch a ton of TV but especially after he was killed I went a long time without turning on the TV. Then after a while, we started watching The Office. It was my break. It was the first time I laughed at nonsense.
But then a few days ago, we got an antenna and while Ariel was gone one evening I started watching. Wow. It’s worse than sugar. It’s poison. And yet can be so addicting.

I think maybe just like good nutrition is vital to athletes. Good spiritual food is vital to those who are grieving.

Of course, it’s actually vital for everyone. It’s just the athlete and the grieving who feel that need so strongly. I’ve never drank in the scripture like I did the first two months after he was killed. Scripture, sermons, books about God. I needed a constant stream. I’m sure it’s why some of the shows I normally love and feeling so shocking. The healthy body is more bothered by junk food.

About Camila

Based in Atlanta, but from the mountains of North Carolina. New widow of a man from Iran. Mother of one precious girl. Anti-human trafficking expert. Sister to 16 siblings (Yes, some of are adopted). Daughter of God.

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