update: Saturday was so worth it. There is one particular non-profit that is always an amazing encouragement to me and it has nothing to do with the work they do, though I like the work they do. The encouragement comes, because the Spirit if God is there, every time I go. It is tangible. I had trouble focusing for the first part of the panel because I could feel my spirit being healed and renewed as I was sitting there on the stage. It doesn’t matter if my talk follows a time of worship or a talk on porn, God’s spirit is there and I leave refreshed and encouraged. Outofdarkness.org is worth checking out.
It’s not the work I mind so much, it’s the times work steals my time with Zoya and Shah, like last night. At 8:30 I just couldn’t do it anymore. I got to put her to sleep most nights this week by staying awake and still getting up early for work, and it took its toll. I’d been up throwing up one of those nights. Bad Chinese food.
By 9:00 I was in bed. Asleep. I know I’m a lucky one and not everyone has a husband that can just take over and handle a 5 month old, with out even flinching. I should have napped, but I hadn’t wanted to miss time with her when I got home and instead I lost an evening.
I have another relatively early morning today because I agreed to speak this morning at an event. Im not counting it as morning yet. Im just up pumping because it’s been too long.
I used to not mind giving up a weekend here and there, but that’s changing. My husband is completely understanding, but I feel like it’s taking his time. His time with me and his time to step away from baby.
Tomorrow will be the second Sunday in a row we spend traveling out of town for my job. But I believe it is coming to an end. I don’t think I am traveling again before the new year and I only have one more Saturday speaking engagement and that is only so a colleague can have family time. After that, I have got to be more on guard from things that steal time. I need to ask when before I say yes. I’m learning. And I hope I don’t loose too many more evenings with my loves.