death of spouse Grief widow

Shahriar Zolfaghari 

Shahriar Zolfaghari, I love you and that is all I have to say. We miss you and long for the resurrection. 

I wanted to sleep through the anniversary of one year, but Zoya apparently wants to stay up all night. 

So now it has been more than a year since our last text. 

I want to be asleep by 1:00. By the time the gun went off. 

I want to be asleep at 2:00 when the pronounced you dead. 

And 4:00 when I realized you were home and 6:00 when the ME called. 

I need to sleep through this night so I don’t stop breathing. 

It is the last first. So I’ll remember your bright eyes that told me you loved me, your big feet that made me feel grounded, and your heart that wanted a baby girl more than anything in the world. 

If I had known that you would die 3 years after we met, I would have done it the same. We were so blessed. 

About Camila

Based in Atlanta, but from the mountains of North Carolina. New widow of a man from Iran. Mother of one precious girl. Anti-human trafficking expert. Sister to 16 siblings (Yes, some of are adopted). Daughter of God.

1 comment on “Shahriar Zolfaghari 

  1. Gail Pendergrast

    sending you much love.


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